Blogging!

Blogging is a thing i have been using for self expression. It has helped me to get out how happy, sad, frustrated and mad i can get, but for some reason i always have something happen that really hurts me and i feel like i cant talk about it because i dont want anything else said about me or towards me in a negative way. I am so sick, tired, and hurt from being judged from the mistakes i made in the past. I KNOW I WAS A HORRIBLE person and i know i messed up. I am changing just about everything about me and i cant let your negativity bring me down. I have found my way through gods eyes and he is the only persons oppinion i need. I use to be best friends with the devil and all he did was hurt me in the end, i listened to the things he told me and after i finally got knocked down he stood over me laughing because he managed to ruin the great things i had going on in my life. So finally i got the courage to repent to god, and as he reached out his hand to grab mine i felt the room spin, tears running down my face, and my heart skip a beat. i finally found were i belong and i wont lose that to satan again. You may be reading this thinking i am crazy but im not, just because i am following god doesnt make me crazy. I am not a stalker, i have been trying to get the courage to ask you for your forgivness and to try to start this again but i just realized that wont happen because the devil is standing in between us and pushing you away. People have so much hate in them and still say that they dont care, but in all reality they do care. Maybe one day some other people will find enough time and room for god, and learn that everyone makes mistakes and everyone can change, hopefully by that time it wont be to late.