lots of ups and downs!

Well i havent blogged in a good bit so i am going to catch up on my last couple of weeks.

DOWNS:

-So on Feb. 10th my hubby got a call saying his grandpa was in the hospital and didnt have much longer to live. So on feb.11th we packed up the car and drove to texas. I dropped my hubby off at his parents, and the drove to Cali to say good bye to his grandpa, but sadly they didnt get there in time.

-I didnt get to go with hubby because it is a 19 hr drive and would have been hard with the kids. :(


UPS:


-Feb.11th was my moms birthday, so hubby and i got her a blackberry on our plan for her b-day. and i arrived at my moms that day.


-Feb.13th we celebrated Lilys 1st birthday and my nephews 3rd birthday at the Plex. We had lots of fun, there was pizza, lots of games, a play place for the kids, go karts, puttputt, and lots of family, which was the best part.



Then later on that night i went out with my best friend of 8 years to celebrate her 22nd birthday. We went to Texas Nite Life, a country bar/club. I bought her roses and we had a goodnight.





-Feb.14th was Valentines Day. My mommy surprised me and the kids with chocolate and cards.

-Feb.15th i got up went to the store bought the valentines stuff they had on sale. And for some reason i was craving a burger king whopper, and i HATE charboiled burger. so out of curiosity I bought a pregnancy Test and it was positive. I called Hubby and told him, he said it was the greatest Valentines he has ever received! :) We werent trying to get prego, we were using protection and that was the last thing i expected but we are super excited that God has blessed us with another child. Oh and a FYI i did not drink when i went out for my besties birthday, for some reason i just didnt want too, and i havent really drank since October!

-Feb. 16th My brother in-laws wife went into labor and had her beautiful lil girl. Gabriella Christine Montano, 7lbs. 9 oz. 20 1/4 inch long. perfect in every way.



-Feb.17th hubby got back in texas. We were so happy to see him.

-Feb.20th hubby got a suite at the hotel and we had a romantic night away from the world.

-Feb.21st Hubby loaded up the car and we headed back to kansas. Its so nice to be able to sleep in my own bed. My son had us laughing almost the whole ride home, he has such a personality, and it is amazing to know that i created something so amazing!

-Feb.22nd We had to take lily to the dermatologist, and they want blood work to conform what is wrong with my lily.

So that was my crazy adventure.

weekend & people can change!

So i havent posted over the weekend but i have been hello busy. So friday night my friend connie watched the kids for me so the hubby and i could go out to eat. We went to CarlosOKellys, they have amazing mexican food. When we were done we went and grabbed some blue ray movies and headed over to connies for movie night. We watched GI JOE, and then we ended up leaving her house at 1:15 am, thank god she lives right down the street!lol

Then on saturday me and the hubby went shopping and got a surround sound receiver. We were out walking around almost all day going to indoor play grounds and walking the malls, just something to do. We started heading home about 5 then hooked up all our things to the surround sound. Then i got dressed and went shopping with connie. Then we heading to a country club. The country club had a big dance floor, and live bullriding. It was pretty cool but to crowded so me and connie left and went to a irish pub.

Sunday as we all know was super bowl. wooot wooot! I threw a super bowl party at connies house. I made fried chicken, mild and spicey. We had chips and dip, a meat and cheese tray, and lots of fun! I was so excited when the saints beat the colts, only because im a southern kind of girl.lol. I just find it funny that the cowboys beat the superbowl winners acouple weeks ago.lol.

And as for today hubby is on his way to kansas city in the snow and ice. I am watching TV, and on my comp..

So for my inspirational speech today- There will always be evil around every corner, waiting for you to join, act upon, or fight back. The best thing you can do is keep walking, ignore it and move on! God does not control what we do, he made us all have free will. we make our own decisions and our own path, but he will be watching and hope you follow the right path. We all make mistakes but if we dont learn from them then what is the point of free will? Some people dont believe that someone can change so much from being such a horrible person, but i believe otherwise. I believe that if you want to change and you want to be a better person then there is steps you have to take. You cant just be a different person when you wake up but with little steps and correcting yourself you can be a different person but it will take time! There is always room for change, and always room for god.

The Almighty will deliver you from evil. - Job 5:17-19

If evil be said of thee, and if it be true, correct thyself; if it be a lie, laugh at it.
-Epictetus


It requires less character to discover the faults of others than is does to tolerate them.
-J. Petit Senn


If we do not plant knowledge when young, it will give us no shade when we are old.
-Lord Chesterfield


Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.
-Aristotle


What progress, you ask, have I made? I have begun to be a friend to myself.
-Hecato, Greek philosopher


Change and growth take place when a person has risked himself and dares to become involved with experimenting with his own life.
-Herbert Otto


When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.
-Helen Keller


The more a man knows, the more he forgives.
-Catherine the Great


Reputation is what men and women think of us; character is what God and angels know of us.
-Thomas Paine


He knows the water best who has waded through it.
-Danish Proverb


Let us strive to improve ourselves, for we cannot remain stationary; one either progresses or retrogrades.
-Mme. Du Deffand


What you dislike in another take care to correct in yourself.
-Thomas Sprat


Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
- Matthew 7:7-8 (see also verses 9 -12)

"Have faith in God," Jesus answered. "I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."
- Mark 11:22-24

[God says], do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
- Isaiah 41:10 (New International Version)


Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself.
- Matthew 22:34-40

[God says,] "This rather is the practice that I wish:
releasing those bound unjustly,
untying the thongs of the yoke,
setting free the oppressed, breaking every yoke,
sharing your bread with the hungry,
sheltering the oppressed and the homeless,
clothing the naked when you see them
and not turning your back on your own flesh.
Then your light shall break forth like the dawn;
your wound shall quickly be healed;
your vindication shall go before you,
and the glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard.
Then you shall call and the Lord will answer."
- Isaiah 58:6-9


The less you open your heart to others the more your heart suffers.
- Deepak Chopra

Blogging!

Blogging is a thing i have been using for self expression. It has helped me to get out how happy, sad, frustrated and mad i can get, but for some reason i always have something happen that really hurts me and i feel like i cant talk about it because i dont want anything else said about me or towards me in a negative way. I am so sick, tired, and hurt from being judged from the mistakes i made in the past. I KNOW I WAS A HORRIBLE person and i know i messed up. I am changing just about everything about me and i cant let your negativity bring me down. I have found my way through gods eyes and he is the only persons oppinion i need. I use to be best friends with the devil and all he did was hurt me in the end, i listened to the things he told me and after i finally got knocked down he stood over me laughing because he managed to ruin the great things i had going on in my life. So finally i got the courage to repent to god, and as he reached out his hand to grab mine i felt the room spin, tears running down my face, and my heart skip a beat. i finally found were i belong and i wont lose that to satan again. You may be reading this thinking i am crazy but im not, just because i am following god doesnt make me crazy. I am not a stalker, i have been trying to get the courage to ask you for your forgivness and to try to start this again but i just realized that wont happen because the devil is standing in between us and pushing you away. People have so much hate in them and still say that they dont care, but in all reality they do care. Maybe one day some other people will find enough time and room for god, and learn that everyone makes mistakes and everyone can change, hopefully by that time it wont be to late.

Frustrated!! uggghhhhhhh!!!!

Okay so i decide i was going to come up with a hobby that i could have fun with and be proud of myself for. so i was watching tv about 3 months ago and thought about making fondant cakes. So about a week ago my hubby went the store and bought everything he thought i need to make a cake. well he forgot some things and i didnt know until i started on the cake, so i made do with what i had. Lets just say that if i knew what i do now my cake wouldnt look like crap. I made lots of mistakes but i guess that is how you learn and improve what you are doing. So i spent 4 hours on a cake that i dont like.lol. So for future lessons i am going to post pictures of my future cakes on here so i can remember what i did wrong and what i need to improve.

Does the Bible instruct us to forgive and to forget?

Answer: The phrase "forgive and forget" is not found in the Bible. However, there are numerous scriptures commanding us to “forgive one another” (Matthew 6:14; Ephesians 4:32). A Christian who does not forgive can reap bitterness and the loss of eternal rewards (Hebrews 12:14-15; 2 John 1:8). Forgiveness is a decision of the will. Since God commands us to forgive, we must make a conscious choice to forgive. This frees the forgiving one from the past. The offender may not desire forgiveness and may not change (Matthew 5:44). Ideally, the offender will seek reconciliation, but if not, the one wronged should still make known his decision to forgive.

In one sense, it is impossible to truly forget sins that have been committed against us. We cannot selectively "delete" events from our memory. The Bible states that God does not "remember" our wickedness (Hebrews 8:12). God is all-knowing. God knows that we have “sinned and fall short of the glory of God” (Romans 3:23). However, having forgiven us, He treats us as if the sin had not occurred. If we belong to Him through faith in Christ, God does not hold our sins against us. In that sense we must "forgive and forget." If we forgive someone, we must act as if that sin had never occurred. We remember the sin, but we live as if we did not remember it. Ephesians 4:32 tells us, "Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you."

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The Gift of Forgiveness by. Charles Stanley. GREAT Healing Book!

WOWZERS

well i havent blogged in a couple of days, i have been very busy! Well on Friday i got my income tax, and ended up going to a Pamper chef party on base with a couple of air force wives. It was alot of fun. The pamper lady made us a chocolate molted lava cake in the microwave. i wasnt impressed, it tastes better out of the oven. Then after the party we all sat around playing apples to apples, i really got to know acouple of the ladies and the funny thing is that one is my neighbor connected to me and 4 other girls live on my street.lol.

Then Saturday me and hubby were out alllllll day shopping and paying bills. I bought my hubby a new wedding band since his was plain, he got me a new baby blue dell laptop, and we picked out a entertainment center, and a wii together. Didnt get home till 11:00 at night and then kids slept all night and didnt make a sound.


Then Sunday, me and my friend Connie went to the mall, we came to realize we shouldnt go to aeropostale together.lol. we spend to much money. Then we headed over to target and grabbed both of us blue-ray dvd players, and i grabbed a new camera. I have the worst luck with cameras, i always lose them or break them. This one wont last to long, its touch screen, so i got a protection plan.lol


Today has been an okay day. Hubby went to work and while he was at work i put together the entertainment center and put everything on it. He had to be home at 3:00 because Lilyane had a doctors appointment. For the last couple of months lily has been losing her hair alil at a time but it seems like a lot to me. So the doctor looked at her and said she has Alopecia, and if i want test to be ran to be 100% sure he would send us to a Dermatologist. So we went ahead and got an appointment set up. So we have been pretty down about that but i know she will be okay because for the past couple of weeks me an the hubby have been talking about maybe having another kids before we go off and make some changes where we cant. So maybe alil later down the road we will have another kid and keep its cord blood to reverse the disease.


So anyways while i was sitting here watching tv i got to thinking. You think that you know someone but all in truth you never know someone a hundred percent. People change everyday, from either a bad event, happy event, or sad event. I have a problem with not being able to stay mad at people because people change. I look back at my life 3 months ago and it is so different now. I have learned that when you invite god into your life you are more proud and happy, spiritually, and mentally. I know i have done wrong in the past, and i am determined to prove to everyone that I of all people have changed and in a better place. I dont fake like my life is amazing, it really is. And i can only thank one thing. GOD! I have found my way through God. I will never let my life slip again. I see everything in a different light. My new inspirational song is "give me your eyes." by Brandon Heath. Look it up. :)