OMG... where have i been?lol

Holy ba-jesus, i havent been on here in forever. Hmmmm... where do i start?


okay so i went to the doctor about 4 weeks ago, and they called on may 17th and told me that the test for the baby having a neural tube defect came back postive and they wanted me to go in and take another test, so i did that day. i didnt hear from them so on may 24th my husband called and asked for the results and they came back positive again, and said i was high risk, and needed to see a specialist. well they got me and appointment but it isnt till june 30th. so hubby was mad and called tricare and got me a new OB, that i get to see on june 17th.
okay at first when i heard about the results i was going CRAZY insane, always worrying. But after time, the talks with friends and family, i have came to be okay with not knowing till i see the specialist, then they will tell me what type of neural tube defect the baby has or how severe it is. God has a plan and i may not know what it is but it has a purpose. But for right now im calm, enjoying FINALLY feeling baby move around, which started last week, and i am 21 wks now. Still dont know if its a boy or girl, but i cant wait to find out.




I have started to learn how important having friends and people to talk to is when you are a military wife. I honestly cant say i have "friends" here in kansas because i dont. I know a few ladies, and talk to them every now and then. I thought a girl was my friend here, but started seeing shady things she was doing that i was as a bad friend use to do, so i with drew myself from the situation. It sucks being in a place where u havent lived for to long. I am starting to remember how hard it is to make friends in a new place, like it was did when i moved to florida in 2005.lol. My internet friends are what keeps me going though, even though they may be miles, states, or countries away, i always have someone to chat to online.




I have also resently started talking to someone i was once close to. Its amazing how just someone asking how you are can brighten up your day, and make you realize how much you care about that person. Everyone hits a hard spot in the road, and we learn from them, and we become better people (if we want to). Life is an amazing journey, noone said it would be easy but there are some great memories, some sad memories, and more to be made.



well i guess im gonna wrap this up since im sitting in bed, while my hubby is snoring next to me, and the baby has finally stopped moving and fell asleep that i can get comfortable and snooze away.lol :)